A Noble Dream.

Yes. Out of my love for this person, a new dream, a greater has spurted forth. I’m not really sure if the AMA scholarship people would be buying my sincerity, but even if they won’t, it’s really true. I used to dream of unfathomable wealth, but now, it’s another story. I’ve realized that even if I’ll get all those money, I will not be happy. Why? Because it will just trigger my discontentment for everything and my quest for something bigger, something more than what I already have. And the major disappointment I had on the previous post, it actually brought about this noble little dream of mine.
I also realized, that, it doesn’t matter what kind of house I live in, what kind of car I’m driving, or even if i’m homeless and car-less, as long as THIS person is by my side, I’ll be happy.
Just like what Dok Go Jin was saying on some episodes of ‘The Greatest Love’; It doesn’t matter if I’m rolling around in dog poo, as long as I’m rolling around with you. That’s exactly what I’m thinking about my Greatest love. That’s why I love Dokko. Ding Dong!
Ah, he’s married! And I’m quite pleased about it!
His wife has become my little heroine ^^
If you’ll see her, you’ll understand. People say she’s ugly, but I think she’s great! She might be a little plain (oh, like me, I must admit) but she’s successfully landed a man as hot as Cha SeungWon, and frankly, that’s all that matters. Okay, for sure, her husband is not as hot as mine (at least the one I’m gonna have in the future) and that’s just RIGHT because I am quite hotter than she is.
So now, I’m aching to know her secret on how she managed to capture CSW’s heart, because I might need those secrets in capturing my man’s heart. I’ve never captured any man’s heart before, and that suits me just fine. Because, there’s only one man in the world whose heart I want to capture. I wouldn’t want to capture some hearts and would later discard it. Those would be poor little hearts, as mine had been, back when it has been captured by evil men.
But if God will grant me my little wish to be next to this person I love, I’ll surely seek out CSW’s missus and befriend her. She’s inspiring me, after all.
Actually, I didn’t intend to write a post about my noble dream, since I’m not disclosing it at all, and I’m here to write about the uncontrollable fluttering of my heart whenever I see this person I love. It sometimes takes me by surprise. When I would suddenly look up, and then I’d see his face, my heart would start beating crazily, that I begin feeling like Dokko, someone who has a cardiac problem. And then, after seeing him like that, I would long to trace the features of his face with my fingers.
And then, at times, I get frustrated on how slow my pace is while running towards him. I’m using up all my force and energy already, and if he is any other person, I would’ve been in his arms already, with all these efforts I’m making, but because he is himself, using all my strength, I’m still inching towards him, centimeter by centimeter. It’s difficult to reach him, since we have a vast ocean between us, and he is not even aware that I’m running towards him, because he never ever looks back
But it’s okay, someday, I’ll finally reach my goal, which is to be beside him, so I’ll be able to tap his shoulder.
All day, I’m thinking of all the things I want to do for him, the things I want to do with him, and all the things I want to do to him.
I also would like to stop him from doing the things he does that harms himself. Maybe if I’ll love him enough he’ll forget those bad things. And then, we could realize my noble dream together.
He is a man perfect for me. Not only that, he is also the man who could perfectly help me with my Noble dream. I’m quite confident that I would be able to do it by myself, with God’s help. But if God would pull him into my circle, and provide His blessing, then we could do even greater things.
To somehow ease the suffering of mankind, down to a few notches.
We can live in a teepee, igloo, caves, tents, wherever, as long as he is with me, I’ll be happy.