Sohapilee: a Wishful Heart

October 30, 2009

Stupid Day. Infuriating Registration S(

Filed under: Uncategorized — sohapilee @ 7:51 am

Seriously?Why was I destined to encounter all these stupid registration throughout this week? From Monday til yesterday, I was burning my butt out in the enrollment. Why does my school has to be so old-fashioned??? Aaaargggh! I wasn’t able to have my usual sleep this week, and I think it has caught up with me today. Hah. and I was having fun last night too,early in the evening. My Bestie and I went roaming around :D I looved it. And our thoughts are sooo funny.
But Now I’m feeling so grumpy. Ugh. I am enduring another bout with registration. I was waiting the whole day, but I’m nowhere near the finish line. Ugh. And I’m bored to death waiting. Seriously. I almost fell from the long flight of stairs where I sat—and I was on the topmost part—because I feel so sleepy. I wanna watch the videos I downlaoded last night too..But hey, I need to find the subs first.
Oh, I gotta go. My mother will take action. haha. Maybe I won’t ahve to wait anymore :D
Yipee. i want this done and over with. As soon as possible.

oh yeah, what makes the whole experience boring is the absence of hunks to ogle at :D

October 28, 2009

Irritating.

Filed under: sohapilee's daily cravings — sohapilee @ 11:18 pm

I know very well how late I slept last night. I was expecting I could manage to get undisturbed sleep until 8:00 at the very least, but hey, the stupid campers woke me up..They were so noisy I couldn’t get back to sleep..and then When I’m fully awake and irritated, they went away, and everything went still. How stupid can that be? Isn’t that way too irritating?? And I have not seen even the shadow of LAD. If I count the hours I spent with him in the vicinity, I wouldn’t even reach 20 hours. How tragic.
Last night I did something crazy. Well, there was this Darren person..and I fooled around with him. Well, sort of. Nothing lewd or anything like that. Well, I can say I ‘Kulit’ him a lot last night. And no way I’m going to fall for all his baiting and his wiles. He’s a creep. Yeah, and certainly not that handsome. but fooling around with him is so much fun. Well, I think he finally gave up around one. I wasn’t really paying attention to him because he sounds so ’sira’. maybe the guy was drunk. It feels so good not to care. Like I said whatever I want to say…But really, I wasn’t being naughty. I wasn’t the one being naughty. Well, he must think I’m from around his area, wherever it is. But I am not. So I couldn’t get tempted with the ‘dinner’ thing..
Well, he is such a great laugh. I’d remember this someday and I’ll roll about laughing my guts out. Hah, he looks funny, with all that stupid hair on his face.
Who cares. His girlfriend probably.
It isn’t a business of mine..so let’s rest the case.

Oh, I got accquainted with someone named Lee Dong Wook. And it is so funny, having a name like Lee Dong wook. Seriously. Like Gong Chan! Hah. He lives in Australia, currently. And he looks like the guy from HALE. I dunno what’s the name of that guy.

And I spoke with KilMo ssi. He’s old.
He needs help, honestly speaking. I want to help him of course, since he seems to teach me korean well. At least before I slept i remembered everything..upon waking up though, it’s another story. Oh, and he has a friend named Jin Bae. cute name. Anyways, I’m glad I’m fooling around for a change. I’ve always been proper. So maybe this is why it feels so refreshing. Hah. The guy was speculating whether I was gay or not. ROFL
Really…haha. He Must be plagued by gays all the time. I should have told him I was. hahaha. That would be too funny. lol
Then I can’t imagine what would I have said. It’s like being drunk…my actions. Well…

Oh yeah, the most irritating thing of all. This guy I’m over with?? Yeah. that one I was talking about in my previous post, he was online, and he logged off so fast. maybe scared that I’d talk to himor something. Well, he should stop flattering himself. Like the British guy. Flattering himself! may crush daw ako sa kanya!!!!!???? well, totoo naman, but that was before. Ssssh! Don’t tell him that. He’s a complete turn-off…even if he’s fun. Funny I mean. ^^

Life sucks.

Filed under: Uncategorized — sohapilee @ 7:50 am

yeah. Just like now. i’m stuck with all the stupid nonesense of enrollment. well, I’m glad I passed MCN. I won’t feel guilty ogling LAD. Well, if i failed, I would’ve cursed myself for thinking of him at times when i was supposed to be studying for my finals. Well, it was the first moments after I acknowledged my feelings (yeah!) for the guy, so what do you expect? Of course I tend to think of him every minute of the day. I really wasn’t able to concentrate, but i don’t blame the poor, even unaware guy. Well, I’m lucky i’ve passed, but the enrollment is really going like–crazy. Especially this thing about my grades.
And..well, I was just thinking (this is off-track) that if he were my teacher, I’d absorb everything like sponge. In fact, if you quiz me now, I can precisely tell you everything he said. Somehow, i can’t get over the fact that he sang my favorite song.
whoa. I think I’m going crazy. And I need to get bored. if you know what I mean. To get stuff done. To make myself actually productive. Whew. I can’t write a word. I need the money.

On EMO mode..

Filed under: Uncategorized — sohapilee @ 7:26 am

*I wrote this last night*

Well, so tonight I really have to write this down. Or type it, rather. I am currently reading Meg Cabot’s Queen of Babble series,
and as usual, it’s awesome! I never really read a book by Meg that I didn’t like, except for that King arthur thingie…
Well, it wasn’t my thing. She really writes the most ‘kilig’ scenes and those are often Laugh-out-loud too. Well, To be frank,
It’s not the reason why I am writing this right now. Actually, it’s because I’m watching some compositions simultaneously
to reading this books. Well, It’s kind of connected too, My Love Life-or lack thereof and Lizzie Nichol’s disasters, only that
I never performed blowjob on anyone. Yet. And the fact that she has found her Jean Luc or Luke at that, and me, I’m still hoping..
which is actually kind of helpless. I wish something like her story would happen to my life too, not that part discovering that her
best friend is actually Bi, and well,..having a big mouth. But like what she said, “having a guy I like Liking me back, for a change”. Well,
It’s something that has never happened to me before. Maybe I need to wait until I’m 22 or something. I hope. Because 22 is okay. As long as
I don’t become an old maid and will still have a chance to wear sleeveless on my wedding. Or to be wed, at the very least. Well,
now that I think of it, I think myself and this Lizzie has a lot in common…interest in wedding stuff, for one. And falling for the wrong guys.
Well, Okay, this is not really the reason why i’m babbling all this. As I said earlier, I was watching some clips I ripped off youtube, this composition thingie..
and watching it intently, if you were me will definitely get you feeling tragic. It’s worse than Romeo and Juliet, only that
in this case it’s one-sided. But i’m actually OVER it. seriously, I’ve been writing about being Over him for so long..it’s just that
seeing him play..it makes a girl wishful, you know. Oh, and one thing I’ve learned in the series, MY HEART HASN’T BEEN BROKEN BEFORE!
Isn’t that good news? because before, it had only been bruised.Well, duh, it’s not as if I couldn’t stand some bruising. And Bruises heals fairly quickly,
if you don’t mind the hideous colors it changes into before it finally heals.Unless you are anemic. Which I seriously believe I am.
But maybe it’s just a case of Pseudoanemia. Nothings serious actually.I’m certainly not feeling broken at the moment.And there are ‘ferrous sulfate’
lying around if you just know where to look..for instance, LAD, whose name, I discovered is actually a name of a place-slash-street in new York.
Well, hah, that makes him like Vaness Wu, right, named after a street. maybe he was born there. Although I can’t really imagine such probability.
I’m straying from the topic! Ugh, I’m supposed to write about HIM..the other one. Ugh, Why does it have to have a Brownout? this place is awful.
And why the heck does moths and other insects go after the light? It’s so annoying! And Really, I’m pissed.If only I can kill these nonesense!

Hah, Finally, The generator’s on!
Anyways, seeing his hands, that looks so fluid and graceful, although somewhat chubby, pierces my heart. Well, it just feels so tragic, that he doesn’t want
that he does not return what I have given him freely—-my heart. And he has to fall crazy in love with some girl who plays the
guitar and have some wonderful voice singing ‘replay’
only to get himself hurt. And to think that he made his compositions just for her. I mean, with her in mind! can’t she possibly see that?
If only it had been me, but It wasn’t. I can’t even get close to the guy, for goodness sake? We are just not ‘talo’.
Well,in that case, I just need to find some of the Ferrous sulfate lying around to cure my anemia and prevent further and persistent Bruising of my heart.

Random thoughts..(10-26-09)

Filed under: Uncategorized — sohapilee @ 7:23 am

On my way here, I was thinking ‘dumb luck. I wanna kick some ass.But probably there’ll be no ass availaable to kick about.’ Well, now
I really really wanna kick some. I mean, duh, there’s no server even..hah. What a waste of time.
I had been thinking about my lovely Old LAD (and I mean That literally) lately. And I think I’m a romance-starved person at the moment.
Hunk-and-hottie-starved at that too that every guy I meet, I am assesing if He hapened to be a hunk or a hottie. Doable or not.
Well, I can’t help it, I do that quite automatically. Maybe it’s because I’m already of age, finally 18, and I can do whatever I want. I can
smoke, drink or ahve sex whenever I want. Problem is, it’s not my thing. All of those nonesense.Anyways, the vehicle had been so packed that
I was crushed into the guy who seemed to be really bad-ass type. He’s chubby though, but he’s got the looks.Well, we were crushed together thigh to thigh,
hip to hip, arm to arm. It was actually sticky and I didn’t like it one bit.Well, so i had to think of my Old LAD. If he was the one beside me, I’d pass out for sure..
And what was the problem with that? It’s actually an opportunity. Yeah, passing out. Because he’ll definitely be teh one to do the first aid etcetera—that sort of thing..
and I might qualify for mouth to mouth rescuscitation.But it does not involve the tongue, does it? But it’
s doable. i can bear with that. Hah.Mouth to mouth, no ongue, will definitely work for me,since it would be my first time.
Wow, this is so exciting. I am sure he is very well-versed with teh rescuscitation thing. He’s actually really very capable of doing some great things like defend himself from
a knife with a chair. I saw his video in youtube. he was really chubby, haha. When did I start liking chubbies? huh? Well, Ideally, I don’t like chubbies. I like hunks, hotties, the likes.
But then , in reality? I tend to liek chubbies. I already have two chubbies for whom I fell for. Well.

Thinking back.

Filed under: sohapilee's daily cravings — sohapilee @ 7:14 am

Okay. these are just the thoughts that went crawling through my head when I was doing my favorite chore this morning,
which was, naturally, washing the dishes. As usual, I was thinking about the current center of mt obsession, that old guy over there..
which You don’t have to know who. You ahve no business regarding that. Well, anyways, I was thinking about how my L.O.V.E. for
Hallyu is slowly dying and there’s a huge possibility he’ll be the reason why. Well, Of course I won’t let him sway me, I am not
that obsessed over him..maybe I am obsessed, but really, not that much. In any case, I don’t know , I was just thinking why on earth did he
capture my attention, he’s old, he’s fat, he’s anything but my ideal man. Lately my heart had been ignoring my mind’s command regarding
Mi..uh, principe ideale. Well, of course I thought about the other guy who also ahppened to be fat and everything but whom I always thimnk of as
Puuurfect. I don’t know what’s the difference between the two. Of them. Well, maybe because one was half the age of the other, haha.And I happened
to be crazy for the other while I’m over with the one. The Perfect one. Well, plus the fact that i was listening to 2ne1, whose
music wasn’t really my type before. And I don’t know when I started to like the kind of music they do. And I remembered the words of Mr. Old,
when he said ‘I only listen to the music that are nice, and of course those which I can understand’. Well, I know exactly what he meant.
I liked that kind of music too. I wouldn’t listen to anything except that kind before. But maybe I matured a bit. if you can call it that.
And then I thought that it was some girl’s kind of music too..you know the kind taht I didn’t like before. The kind that makes you want
to dance or do something crazy. Well, I’m not really the dancing type. In fact, you can never make me. Ever. Then i thought of what the other guy…okay, the one
I’m over with, said. He said the other girl knew how to read and write and say and whatever korean. And I remember thinking to myself, ‘what the heck, I can do that
too, so why don’t you choose me over her’, well, those were just crazy, obsessive thoughts, you see. haha. What a laugh.As if he’ll ever choose me over anyone.
He’ll definitely choose anyone else BUT me. I’ve already accepted that and it’s already embedded in my brain and in my hypothalamus, or wherever for that matter. So
I’m actually past the stages of grief, and I’ve even moved on. I’ve lost. i’m no valedictorian, I’m not photogenic, I can’t paly the guitar, or sing, or do ice-skating.
And I can’t afford to go camping in other countries, i can’t afford to buy a camera. let’s just face it, i’m no good, I’m not beautiful, I’m nothing next to her.
I’m not worth composing music for. As I am writing this I feel nothing. I am so happy I’m so totally completely over the guy. Well, I want us to be friends but i think
It’s awkward so I can forget it. Basta, i know when he needs me, (although I don’t think he ever does or will ever do for that matter) i’M ALWAYS HERE.
And regarding Mr Old, well, I even got to the point when i hunted down the old old copy of the MA he’s doing (and freakin’ good at) and tried to study it. well,
it’s so old the pages are crumbling when you touch it and it becomes dust, it even gave me a cold, but don’t tell my mother that. But so afr I only managed the first page.
I figured it wasn’t worth getting a migraine about. Because, frankly, if it’s really destiny, he’ll be the one to teach me,but of course, if it’s not, let’s forget about it
then. Oh, and I changed my wallpaper from us (Mr. Old and Me) to My Jisub waiting for me by the sea. Hah. Well, amybe not exactly waiting for me, since I captured it from
a recent movie. But who teh hell cares? No one. So it’s okay.OOOOh, that poor baby of mine, I didn’t send a birthday gift to him.He won’t miss it. He won’t miss my appearance. and it’s
actually okay because I will compensate in the future when we are finally together.I have my plans that if the Lord up above will allow, might be successful, and I might get the wonderful
pre=wedding pictorial around the globe which i had been dreaming about. And yeah, It’s more grand than the wedding itself..
like an advanced honeymoon, but of course no sharing of beds or anything like that. you know what I mean. yeah, amybe it’s to early to start planning, but again, who cares?
as long as no one else knows…haha.
I might be able to get YiRuMa to compose our wedding song and play it too. Wouldn’t it be grand? absolutely awesome! don’t you think so?? :D

October 14, 2009

Oh My. Time’s Running out!

Filed under: Uncategorized — sohapilee @ 5:50 am

For Jisub’s birthday gift! It’s due october 24..And I ahven’t done anything yet! I don’t have the proper equipments..and seriously, I’m too embarassed to do the same thing all over again…But I have to send my gift to my man. It’s my promise to myself..and I really really have to fulfill it!
But how? what am I going to abble about now? for the same 30 seconds…I’m getting all flustered here…ottokke?? towa chuseyo!

Uninspired.

Filed under: Uncategorized — sohapilee @ 5:46 am

Okay. I don’t feel any inspiration right now. I don’t ahve the energy i’m supposed to have..if only he’d been there. stupid of me. I should ahve realized that it’s his day off. He mentioned it yesterday too, but it slipped from my mind, and so I hoped and wished that he’s be present. Haish :(
And I’m too sad that I wouldn’t be able to go on the fuoridization mission trip tommorow due to exams. For once in my life, I wish we have duty! Aaargh!
Why now? It’s so frustrating! I hope next time, the first blocking we’ll have on second semester, I’d be able to see him again.
Oh. I learned quite a lot about him! I eavesdropped and heard that he’s approximately 32 years old! About Jisub’s age! And he’s the chapter head of acertain martial arts too! I read it in google. Imagine, I googled him up! and that’s why I came up with his surname too! through google! This is too funny. I read abot lifesaving competition held in Boracay too, and I found his name there! is he swimming too??? Oh my. If there’s something I can’t resist other than hunks and football players who are older tahn me, and pianists too, it’s swimmers! I can’t resist swimmers! There too broad-shouldered kasi. But I couldn’t come up with a photo of the genius. :(

I am a little bit inspired though. Inspired to write a story about him. Just wait until exams are over and I’ll definitely write! It’s really different if you ahve a basis on whom or which to write about. in this case, maybe I’ll picture him as the lead guy and me as the leading lady. haha. It’s ridiculous, but … well, I can’t help it. In between taking BPs this morning, I was busy scribbling about the story. Last night before I slept too. Well, if ever it gets published, I’ll dedicate it to LAD. hmmmn…haha :D

OMG! my new crushee is unbelievable!

Filed under: Sohapilee Top Secrets, sohapilee's daily cravings — Tags: — sohapilee @ 5:07 am
Us Blockmates in the RHU with Sir Lafayette :) :) :)

Us Blockmates in the RHU with Sir Lafayette :) :) :)


*clears throat*
Okay. Here it Goes. I first saw him in a secluded part of the world..wherein only sugarcane grows along the road. Of course, I didn’t know him at first. I remember those moments quite vividly. We were doing the fluoridization of the children’s teeth, and he was the one handing me the dry/new cotton. I would never forget that time because we were more than a little bit stranded and we ate hershey’s chocolates and cheesecakes. Oh, and the part that I like most about the experience is as we listened to the falling rain, the staff of the LGU of Murcia dared us to sing. And then he was the ‘pambato’ of their group. cathlyne Penaflorida even sang, but it was a religious song, and they were begging for pop songs. They even urged me, not knowing that if I complied, they’d have blood running down their ears. Jevalym was persuaded to sing as well, and she was wondering on what to sing. I was crazy about “we could be in love” at that time, as well as now, and I asked her to sing it for me. And he said he’ll sing with her. Actually, it was slightly off-key, hers, I mean. Because I don’t think she has mastered the song. But his Voice was beautiful, and I wished I was the one singing with him. well, to be really honest, it wasn’t then that I set my eyes on him..I saw how HUNKY he was from the very start right when he was handing me those cotton balls. I was dying to know his name, and I heard them saying it: Lafayette, which, to me is a girl’s name.
Well, there’s nothing remotely Girly in him, if you ask me. He’s 100% pure male flesh–Hunky at that too. Well, you see, my greatest weakness are Hunks. They don’t have to be handsome, you know, for me to get attracted. They just have to have broad backs, with flat abdomens and sizzling appeal. He has all.
And just today, we were blocked in RHU,a nd I was quite surprised to see him there! He was wearing maroon-colored pair of scrub suit, with his shaved head and a really appealing HUNKiness. He was quite jolly, and was joking around. And of course, I got starry eyed. Again, as usual. He was kidding with us, and he started talking about syphilis, which I thought was a joke, although apparently, not. It’s about neural syphilis. he discusses it in a Hunky way too..see those CEOs portrayed in kdramas? so like him. He also mentioned about the group wanting to learn about ARNIS, a local martial art, and I presented myself stupidly. I think he didn’t realize I was serious.
I told my tatats about him, and I asked them to research him for me. his last name at the very least. Well, they were tooo shy to do serious researching and they overheard our CI, Sir Benitado telling our other blockmates that he was once a CI too. That’s why he looks and sounds so cool when he discusses and explains something.
He also shared about “The cat bit the rat under four pigs….” I forgot the rest. Basta, it’s about remembering the pulses in the world! And revised one of my favorite songs in a really naughty way! Imagine: …All I wanna do, is make love with you..(!!!!) lol but he’s terribly funny. I like his personality!
We were able to take photos together! And he read our palms! Correctly at that!
But I think he uses psychology..that’s why he knows.

We left, and i didn’t know his name still. Last name, i mean. So I searched his first name at google..and I saw some links, although it’s in blogspot, and I coulodn’t access it. He really is a professional martial artist! And he holds a rank in the club of martial artists! Amazing! He’s perfect..
I wish i could add him up in facebook :(
But I couldn’t find him…yet.
He read my palm! He said I was emotional..and I should use my intellect when judging people! I don’t understand much! I must ask him to read my other hand! palm, I mean!

Us still :) Inspired?? lol

Us still :) Inspired?? lol

He’s perfect! but I don’t stand a chance :(

October 11, 2009

My. I hate this school! >.<

Filed under: sohapilee's daily cravings — sohapilee @ 7:54 am

Imagine! i couldn’t even download anything from my email! I couldn’t access harmless sites like mediafire! No facebook, no youtube! Not even my very own ipbfree site! It’s been more than a month since I last accessed my facebook account! And I was trying to download sheetmusic just now, to no avail..haish. I’m weary from all of these nonesense. I Hate—no, I loathe whoever did this, and I don’t care.

I better sleep, since I was up until 4 am this morning playing The Sims3, thanks to Kimuel :)

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