last night, was the night I held hands with my chut sarang 5 years ago..I never held someone’s hands that way before taht night, and after as well. poor me. I am so socially malnourished. But, it doesn’t matter..it’s a kind of thing that can be considered ‘nonesense’. Well, i just remembered too, that a year ago, minus one day, we ahd a wonderful dinner…and my con Brio crush..the guitarist/drummer sat beside me and passed me food and iced tea…and then with nothing to do afterwards, sat beside each other and texted each othewr. it was funny. we were literally beside each other. it was unforgettable. The very alst time I ever saw him…I wonder what is he up to these days??? we lost communication…although we could communicate if we want to..but it seems like he doesn’t acre much aboutr communication, etc.., so why should I care? I’m over him. haah…It’s a wonder a full year passed without ever seeing him when we lived in the same city…almost. what’s wrong with the world? it’s ironic!
and december 11…it was thursday..It was the birthday of the one who stole my heart the second time…I mean, the second thief. he’s gone home though, to meet his relatives(was it his parents???) from Italy. he just turned 18. I knew it was his birthday..I remembered it well, even before they talked about it…since I researched a lot last year…I ahve not seen him since december 6. The feeling si quite light and heavy. i am relieved but there’s some part of me that wishes taht he’s still there. At least there’s someone I’ll ahte, someone who really makes my heart beat double pace at the sight of him…poor me. Must be the punishment for having one too amny crushes. Maybe i just ahve a big heart…don’t you think so???
